blackjane's Blog

something's definitely wrong with me...
i haven't been able to live a day filled with happiness. no matter how much I try to look at the bright things in life...
it's been long since then.

I thought that things would get better through time,
as I mature and go through the troughs that life brings...
but my obsession blinds me from reality

I crave...
I crave...
to be someone new

that's all I ever want.

I can't sleep.. and if I do, I never want to wake up.
I can't go through life in the day without thinking about it.
every minute. every second

I want to be someone new.. .

I want a new face, a new identity, a new memory, a new life. ..so badly

no matter how much I convince myself,
to grab what ever I can, and to love what I have...
I'm rotting day after day.

hehe..sorry for sounding so gloomy. sigh
but finally. I said it. shhh... this is between you and me. thank you :)